@jayyybird.bsky.social

@jayyybird.bsky.social

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Name is Jay I draw, write, and overall create things but they mainly stay in my head. Huzzah

This is a heavy wip but I gave up, still like it tho.
My Myth of the machine OC Scout with the crackhead Jock in all their singular braincell glory.
Pepper dresses as cleo doing a scary pose with spooky dookie lighting oooooh rah
Nobody really talks about the feeling that comes with creating art (writing, drawing, music. any medium) and yet having no attention for it. It's incredibly isolating to be an artist especially one confident in their skills and having spent YEARS being one yet having little to no attention while another artist(s) you know do get attention and even interaction despite relatively being on the same equal level of artistic skill. I'm not upset at of even about their popularity, I'm just frustrated that I can't find that type of audience. Yes, create art for yourself and your own enjoyment—and that is my main goal with everything I do. But at the same time being my own audience exclusively can be very lonely. I'm not very social and I don't understand how to interact like others do but I don't want to be famous by any means. I'd just like a small group of maybe 20 people that like my stuff. Like REALLY like it. Writing stories and characters is my absolute favorite thing in the world and I take great pride in what I do create, but being your own motivator after a long time feels rather dull and doesn't mean much. I do have a handful of friends that take relative interest in my stuff and for that I'm grateful but also it reaches a point where I question if I'm forcing people to listen to me or if someone actually wants to. Then I just stop talking about what I do enjoy and it makes me feel worse but I'd rather bite my tongue off than yap on. To no fault (most of the time) to the other person, I have problems to sort out and a lot of this is my own inner thoughts. Like if nobody really cares about what I do, then am I even good at all? Does the only thing I pride myself on even amount to anything at that point or did I trick myself into thinking it was. I know nobody reads the descriptions on these even though I usually put a lot of lore and whatnot in them for most of if not all my other posts, so putting this here works out for me.
Belle's hero name is Mizan or moondancer(?) so I thought it'd be cute if they were dancing in the moonlight kinda vibes 🥰 Pepper calls Belle, Belladonna. Meaning beautiful lady in Italian 🥹
Zhihao and Macaque holding hands.
Macaque posing with his hands framing his face and his eyes glowing pretty like Pretty boy 🥰
Ship so peak Zhihaque is put in a box
Screenshot of me yapping at my (unconscious) friend and overall sleep deprivation making me do bizarre yet necessary things. Honestly I think writing is just the process of insane ramblings to oneself about fuckall and seeing what sticks to the wall like a pot of spaghetti to see if it's done yet or needs more cooking. I'm going insane