NightmareFluid

@nightmarefluid.bsky.social

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Like a furry but for robots (EN: she/her, DE: sie/es)

I've been going back and forth on this for a while, but I think I'm finally ready to come out publicly. For the past ten years(ish) I've been identifying as transmasc, and for the vast majority of that time, I was happy with that. It was not a mistake, and socially + medically transitioning in a masculine direction helped me feel fulfilled as a person. However, no person is the same at 13 as they are at 23. To preface, I am not detransitioning. That doesn't feel like the right way to phrase it, because for as long as I have been a self-aware person, I have lived as a boy/man. As such, a lot of my experiences with repression, my egg cracking, and my new transition mirror that of transfeminine experiences relatively closely. If I were detransitioning, I would identify as a cis woman, but my experience doesn't feel like it aligns with that as well as it aligns with the experience of transfems. Rather than a detransition, it feels more akin to a retransition.
A photo of my fridge. Only four things are inside of it: a package of baking soda, a bottle of Kraken rum, a flat 2-liter of Coca-Cola, and a package of 4 hot dogs
1000 Liquors in Boystown (GAYtown), Chicago
Me dressed up as a cultist from Castration Movie Part 2, holding a hotdog keychain towards the camera.
A banana peel sitting on the sidewalk
A gas station called "76".
Production-Made Chestburster Casing prop from Aliens (1986). It looks like a very well-made dildo
A pencil drawing of TARS from Interstellar
A rough pencil drawing of the robot Beba-2. His arms are unfinished.
List showing number 178. Tobuscus
Two blue jays in the grass by a tree
A white coffee mug with a little leaf on a stem sticking out of the top. it is secretly a teabag with a cute gimmick but shh don't tell anyone
A giant globe at Ballantine Hall in Bloomington, IN.
Astro Boy, noted robot boy (commonly known as a Roboboy or Roboy)
3 units of cross-stitch thread and a really big length of 14-count aida cross-stitch fabric
An empty stage at Thalia Hall, where William Basinski is about to play.