Prism⭐️🌈

@prisms-panic.bsky.social

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Do you have those “friends” that you thought you were close with. You would message them daily try to interact and show that you’re appreciative and glad they’re around. Only to have them slowly drift away and just Ignore you. Showing signs that they just don’t like you and just wanna be around different people instead. I do I’ve had it happen plenty of times and I’m so exhausted. It hurts so much that i genuinely fear making friends. I don’t want them to end up like the others. Idk what I do wrong if something is wrong with me. I wish I would be someone people wanna be around.
Does anyone know how to safely cut. Im not looking to end my life but rather just have something to get my mind off of these awful thoughts. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore and I rather just have a few cuts than just constantly picking at my beard or scalp.
Hello to anyone who actually read these. Just gotta let my thoughts out one more time. But I falling into a routine of having people show interest in me before just kinda leaving me like before. I’m scared man I don’t want to live any more longer. I can only see my life going downhill. It’s upsetting to me that the best things in my life I know won’t last. It’s exhausting having to find more people and it’s exhausting to those who enjoy being around me. It’s hard to figure out who actually likes me. It feels like I lost two friends. Once doesn’t even checks my messages the others just seems to message out of necessity and not any actual interaction. Man I’m not doing to well
Another alt vent post. Man I don’t know where to begin. It’s just kinda dumb for me to drag all this on but it’s just so morbid. I don’t want to live anymore. I’m extremely suicidal yet I don’t act on my thoughts. I genuinely don’t know what wrong with me. I fantasize about being gone. People not having to deal with me. People just no longer burdening themselves by being around me
I haven’t been feeling very good. I tried for a week or two, to put on a happy face to see if people would gravitate towards me. But it doesn’t seem to be working. I have a wonderful group of friends but it doesn’t patch the fact that a few of my friends just vanish or don’t talk to me. A small issue like that plagues my mind and festers with other irl issues like my abusive family and dysphoria. It leaves me hallow and unstable. Right at this moment I just feel so hopeless and drained. I lay down on my bed and just imagine how it would if I were to just muster the strength to hang myself or grab a knife and take it to my wrist. It seems to difficult. I wish I wasn’t this way. I wish I was normal.
Im considering killing myself. Im hiding my thoughts in the alt text of images to not worry people. I feel like doing this will at least help out easing my mind. Kinda tricking if Into believing i actually let my thoughts out publicly. But honestly idk how much it’s gonna work. No matter what I do I don’t think I’d get better and honestly I’ve given up hope. Any action I do won’t help and I just can’t cope with that realization. No matter what how much I get promised stuff will get better. No matter how many people have promised that they’ll be around to help, either they don’t do so or just something ruins any progress I make. I’m tired and alone feel like a back up and just I really just wanna hurt myself. Give myself a reason to actually feel bad.
I feel like a burden, my life just doesn’t feel like it’s worth to continue and every day I’m not gone I’m just silently waiting until I can gather the courage to make a attempt.