Jeffery

@sandamnit.bsky.social

77 Followers 43 Following

I like stuff, games, anime, food and cooking, plants and gardening, movies and tv, etc. PhD in Mathematics (number theory), not in academia, thankfully. Day job as a software engineer: Linux, C++, Python.

We want to imagine that people are consistent, steady, stable. We define who they are, create descriptions to lock them on a page, divide them up by their likes, talents, beliefs. Then we pretend some--perhaps most--are better than we are, because they stick to their definitions, while we never quite fit ours.

Truth is, people are as fluid as time is. We adapt to our situation like water in a strangely shaped iug, though it might take us a little while to ooze into all the little nooks. Because we adapt, we sometimes don't recognize how twisted, uncomfortable, or downright wrong the container is that we've been told to inhabit.

We can keep going that way for a while. We can pretend we fit that if, awkward nooks and all. But the longer we do, the worse it gets. The more it wears on us. The more exhausted we become. Even if we're doing nothing at all, because simply holding the shape can take all the effort on the world. More, if we want to make it look natural.

Taco Bell Employee: *hands me something other than a Baja Blast at the drive thru*

Me: (meme of Bugs Bunny saying "no")