natalie “anxiety spice” toft

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World Champion Revenge Bedtime Procrastinator. Ungovernable Trash Panda. Portland, baby! Chronic illness. Chronic dork. Broke af. She/her. So, so tired.

Screen shot of text from a post by mattxiv, which reads: This week, two children lost their father. In the last two years, 39,000 children in Gaza have lost one or both parents in what has been called “the largest orphan crisis in modern history” - a product of the U.S.-backed political violence Charlie Kirk championed. If you’re against political violence, please join us in the fight for Palestinians killed by the U.S. war machine, people dying in states with no reproductive healthcare, parents ripped from their children by ICE, and victims of gun violence everywhere- be they schoolchildren or MAGA influencers. Otherwise, I struggle to believe that you’re “against political violence”. I think you’re just against the death of this one particular guy.
Because no number of violent-yet-preventable deaths- of 1st graders, 9th graders, children attending Mass, concert-goers, mall-shoppers, worshippers in any church/mosque/synagogue, or even 2A extremists with sh*tty opinions and sh*ttier behavior, etc. etc.etc., are ever ENOUGH for ENOUGH of us to say: ENOUGH. ENOUGH. Anyway those are MY feelings.
Because it’s a tragedy just to wake up every day in a country where kids can’t even go to school without risking being shot. Because it’s a tragedy when someone chooses to use the one single life they’ve been given to spread hate and lies and to enrich themselves via the scapegoating and suffering of others. Because when you lose that one life - which may happen at any moment - that’s all you have to show for it. When you could literally have just chosen the opposite. Because your kids, who had no say in who their parents would be, now have to try to comprehend your violent death, and must navigate their grief for the rest of their lives within the context of their lost loved one being widely & publicly hated for being hateful.
I don’t have the desire or the audacity or even enough personal inner clarity to try to lecture anyone on how to react or feel today, but I’ll tell you what I’m feeling: Grief and exasperation. …Honestly those are basically my main emotions most of the time these days. But I’ll tell you specifically why today. Because of where we are and how we got here. Because of every word, choice, and action that has propelled us down this trajectory, to a place where everything is violence; where dehumanization is the primary weapon of choice. Because multiple students were injured in ANOTHER school shooting today and we’re not even halfway through September and instead of talking about that or god forbid trying to do anything about it or about ANY part of our gun violence problem writ large, we’re all going to spend the day arguing whether to celebrate or mourn the violent death of a bad man (on the left); OR making a martyr out of a bad man and calling for MORE retributive violence (on the right).
Screengrab from a video of an interview by Matt Bernstein (top half of image) with Yona Roseman (bottom half of image), an Israeli transgender teen. Matt’s caption: “Transgender Israeli teen going to prison for refusing military service explains how Israel uses ‘LGBTQ rights’ as a shield to commit war crimes”. My caption: “Someone give Matt a Peabody already
An aerial view of Gaza, a gray landscaping of buildings bombed to rubble. Caption below reads: this image was smuggled out of an aid plane flying over Gaza. Israel does not allow journalists on those planes (or anywhere in gaza) because this is what we would see.
My dumb face (a plain and average-looking brunette gal with glasses) peering sidelong at the camera in front of a white door
Cat-meme version of Olenna Tyrell’s “I want her to know it was me” moment in Game of Thrones. A white cat peering through a window with a dark-colored curtain draped over its head.
Illustration of a rainbow with smiley face red hearts on either end, on a blue background. Caption says: “I believe in holding grudges. I’ll heal in hell.”
Still of Kyle MacLachlan wearing a yellow helmet and speaking into the phone, saying “hello, 911? How are you?” My caption: “basically my life rn”
Screenshot of text from Holocaust Encyclopedia: What distinguishes a concentration camp from a prison (in the modern sense) is that it functions outside of a judicial system. The prisoners are not indicted or convicted of any crime by judicial process.
Excerpt from article linked in quoted post: During his run for office in 2024, van der Kamp weathered controversy related to his previous law enforcement experience in La Mesa, California. As a candidate, van der Kamp unsuccessfully sued OPB and the county to try and block the release of public records showing why city officials wanted to terminate him over “serious incidents of misconduct” when he was a reserve officer in the 1990s, including alleged dishonesty.
Artistic depiction of a very dramatic and trashily-chic opossum appearing aghast, one forepaw clutched to its chest, mouth ajar, presumably mid-gasp
Harris is racing to teach more than 1,000 St. John's workers how to read warrants as they train for a new role – teaching patients their constitutional rights.
The murderous insanity of all this is scarcely possible to describe. Both TB and especially HIV are prone to mutation, and have developed resistance to some early treatments. Treating drug-resistant strains of the diseases requires strict adherence to a schedule of several different drugs, sometimes for years. The longer treatment is halted, the more likely that the diseases will evolve resistance. Even a pause of a few months could easily result in new strains of totally drug-resistant TB and HIV, rendering all the grueling effort to develop these treatments—much of it funded by millions in U.S. taxpayer dollars—wasted, along with causing millions of deaths.
One target of DOGE’s little Heydrichs is PEPFAR, the brainchild of George W. Bush, which distributes medication to people infected with HIV, mostly in southern Africa. It has saved an estimated 25 million lives, and until recently provided drugs to about 20 million people. Funding has been frozen since January 24. Experts estimate that this has already killed about 15,300 adults and 1,600 children, and that if it remains frozen for a year, the death toll will surpass 500,000. But that won’t be the end. HIV is almost universally fatal without treatment. Unless PEPFAR is restored (or replaced), the death toll could easily eclipse that of the Holocaust.
Galaxy Quest: Sarris looking evil and sneering; Mathesar crying in pain as he is tortured
Comet cleaner in a green cylindrical shaker
Comet cleaner in a green cylindrical shaker
Excerpt from a Gothamist article about Andrew Cuomo entering the race for NYC mayor: In a video posted to X Cuomo said New York City is in crisis. “You feel it when you walk down the street and try not to make eye contact with a mentally ill homeless person, or when the anxiety rises up in your chest as you're walking down into the subway,” he said. “You see it in the empty storefronts, the graffiti, the grime, the migrant influx to random violence, the city just feels threatening, out of control and in crisis.”
Photo of a black and white cat’s face on a white background under the instructions “Draw the rest of the cat”
I am the beggar, I am the queen I am the end, I am the means I am the hammer, I am the wall Never one thing no, not one thing at all I'm the underbelly, I am the claw Never one thing no, not one thing at all I'm a street fighter, I'm a prayer for peace I'm a holy roller, I'm a honey bee I am a victor, I am the loss I am a profit, I am the cost I am the salve, I am the sting Never, no never, no never one thing I'm the underbelly, I am the claw Never one thing no, not one thing at all I'm a street fighter, I'm a prayer for peace I'm a holy roller, I'm a honey bee I am a mother, I am the child I am the meek, I am the wild I am the witch, I am the saint I am alive, never one thing I'm the underbelly, I am the claw Never one thing no, not one thing at all I'm a street fighter, I'm a prayer for peace I'm a holy roller, I'm a honey bee I am the lion, I am the swan I am the bull, I am the fawn… (image cut)
Pussy Riot tour date page: “Track Pussy Riot and never miss them live. Subscribe”
A view out my window of two rainbows above trees and rooftops
Dwight Schrute: “The eyes are the groin of the head”
Photo of a cyber truck with a note tucked under its windshield wiper that just says “DORK”
Headline: Bannon Does His Own Questionable Salute While Calling for a Third Trump Term
Screenshot from white house.gov: PRESIDENTIAL ACTIONS ESTABLISHING THE PRESIDENT’S
MAKE AMERICA HEALTHY AGAIN COMMISSION EXECUTIVE ORDER February 13, 2025
Flag of the state of Oregon
The people that reflexively view any and all public-oriented public spending as waste, fraud, and abuse do not necessarily oppose the spending so much as where and with whom that money ends up. It's absolutely what it looks like: an assertion that money previously spent saving lives would be better spent if distributed among a few twitchy billionaires' pet endeavors.
Back view of a person in blue jeans and a white shirt holding a square-shaped yellow package with red lettering that says “Vel 2 go” above their back pocket. Below the image a caption says: “Bring Velveeta Everywhere With On-The-Go Pouches”
Carol Kane as Valerie in The Princess Bride, pointing and yelling
Panel 1: a scientist in a lab coat peers into a microscope Panel 2: an enlarged view of many purple-hued microscopic cells Panel 3: an even further zoomed in view of the cells, revealing a tiny violin of similar size among them
Your rights You have the right to remain silent and do not have to discuss your immigration or citizenship status with police, immigration agents, or other officials. Anything you tell an officer can later be used against you in immigration court. If you are not a U.S. citizen and an immigration agent requests your immigration papers, you must show them if you have them with you. If an immigration agent asks if they can search you, you have the right to say no. Agents do not have the right to search you or your belongings without your consent or probable cause. If you’re over 18, carry your papers with you at all times. If you don’t have them, tell the officer that you want to remain silent, or that you want to consult a lawyer before answering any questions.
A *few* of the most urgent expenses I’ve been trying desperately to catch up on but only slipping more behind: ( PayPal: @nataliehere ) ( Venmo: @Natalie-T-Toft ) ~$117 auto insurance payment (will cancel 2/4) ~$240 to renew expired car registration, plus a couple hundred more $$ for the ticket I received for said expired tags & wasn’t able to rectify before the court date (ISTG I tried- waited at the DMV twice but couldn’t get my number called before closing …then ran out of money again) ~$200-300 in back taxes - I filed but didn’t have any $$ to pay; not sure how much it will actually shake out to with penalties, but I’m getting certified letters from the IRS & just want it dealt with- before I have to tackle whatever I owe this year ~$$$ Just basic groceries & staple household supplies. Always. I can never get everything I need at once; trying to keep up on the basics while falling behind on everything else is just a demoralizing, ever-more-losing battle
Tweet by Eric Metaxas from October 5, 2020 What is funnier than that this president got Covid and then beat it in a couple of days and is already back at work? Is there anyone like unto him? If I were one of his detractors, I think I'd give up right about now. No sense throwing good bitterness after bad.
Reply from yambag86.bsky.social No,they came for people here illegally and criminal illegals. That's the story. Bye bye. Picking up rapists, murderers,members of horrible gangs etc. Go off though 😂🤣😆
nothing makes you feel like you merely exist as someone else’s project like a vital record that’s altered for the sake of making their dream come true.
Country star Carrie Underwood, who jump-started her career as the winner of American Idol two decades ago, is set to perform "America the Beautiful" during the swearing-in ceremony. "I love our country and am honored to have been asked to sing at the Inauguration and to be a small part of this historic event," Underwood said in a statement provided to NPR. "I am humbled to answer the call at a time when we must all come together in the spirit of unity and looking to the future."
Snoop Dogg and others face heat for performing at Trump's pre-inauguration ball Social media users were quick to point out that Snoop Dogg had previously criticized anyone performing for President Trump in 2017. "I'm waiting. I'm gonna roast the f*** outta you," Snoop Dogg said ahead of Trump's first inauguration, calling anyone willing to perform "Uncle Toms." Country star Carrie Underwood also had to defend her planned appearance at today's inauguration. "I am humbled to answer the call at a time when we must all come together in the spirit of unity and looking to the future," she said in a statement provided to NPR.
Last week, when Musk agreed with the leader of the German far right party AfD that Adolf Hitler was a communist, no part of me thought he was putting on a front, or saying what his handlers thought was necessary for him to say. He has poster’s brain, which is to say he is intellectually curious when it comes to some things — wondering if racism is good, for example, or devising new ways for cars and rockets to explode — but not others — world history, or actually playing the computer games he claims to be good at — and this has always been painfully apparent.
A curly-haired Alex Winter in “Bill and Ted’s Excellent Adventure”, wearing a loose-fitting white T-shirt, arm raised, mouth open in a rallying cry for Excellence, looking awesome, obviously being Excellent
A bright red apple on a plate with a light-colored flower-shaped mark on it
Text from Mom: Dad had to turn it off. We’re eating our emotions now and watching Everything Everywhere All at Once. 🎥 My reply: Probably wise
Confused Nick Young question mark meme
Pensive Lubalin
AI generated woman with many strangely-connected legs and knees, wearing a short white dress and sitting in the woods
Screenshot of quoted skeet highlighting the massive ratio
Album photo for the song “Sister Winter” by Joseph: a person sits in a cozy dimly-lit room with instruments hanging on the wall behind them
Cover art for the song “Refugee King” by Liz Vice, featuring Hannah Glavor: simple white line drawing of the holy family on an orange background
Album cover of Hannah Glavor’s Christmas EP: a person face down on the floor with an upturned Christmas tree on their head
A movie that’s guaranteed make me cry Crash… the scene where the little girl steps in front of a bullet to protect her father 😭