laura d. flowers🏳️‍⚧️☘️🕸️

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writer. trans woman (she/her/hers). supremely sapphic. leftist. you might’ve thought i had another name. protect the vulnerable (including yourself) however you can.

the album cover to THE DOWNWARD SPIRAL by nine inch nails, which famously is an off-white/yellow hybrid background upon brown splotches have formed in patterns that only seem random. the work, an expansion of a work by artist russell mills entitled WOUND, is in fact a “two-foot square wooden panel slathered in plaster, oils, acrylics, rusted metals, dead insects, wax, varnishes, blood (Mills' own), and surgical bandaging.”
an image from the NYT Games spelling bee game. from top to bottom: a cute cartoon bumblebee wearing a crown, then the words Queen Bee in an elegant h2 size serif font. then a series of stats from left to right: 253 puzzles, 10,569 words, 365 pangrams (words that use all seven letters in the puzzle at least once) and 211 Queen Bees. (the Queen Bees stat is now in a vertical column bc i went over 100.) Finally, the statement: “You found everything! All 77 words worth 370 points.”
an image from the NYT Games spelling bee game. from top to bottom: a cute cartoon bumblebee wearing a crown, then the words Queen Bee in an elegant h2 size serif font. then a series of stats from left to right: 241 puzzles, 9,989 words, 350 pangrams (words that use all seven letters in the puzzle at least once) and 200 Queen Bees (finding every word in the puzzle). the Queen Bees stat is now in a vertical column bc i went over 100. Then in all caps block letters are the words BADGE EARNED, and in a narrow rectangle is a golden badge that says 200 over the icon of a crown. Finally, below all that, this statement: “You found everything! All 28 words worth 103 points.”
an image from the NYT Games spelling bee game. from top to bottom: a cute cartoon bumblebee wearing a crown, then the words Queen Bee in an elegant h2 size serif font. then a series of stats from left to right: 225 puzzles, 9,248 words, 329 pangrams (words that use all seven letters in the puzzle at least once) and 186 Queen Bees. (the Queen Bees stat is now in a vertical column bc i went over 100.) Finally, the statement: “You found everything! All 56 words worth 284 points.”
an image from the NYT Games spelling bee game. from top to bottom: a cute cartoon bumblebee wearing a crown, then the words Queen Bee in an elegant h2 size serif font. then a series of stats from left to right: 203 puzzles, 8,279 words, 297 pangrams (words that use all seven letters in the puzzle at least once) and 165 Queen Bees. (the Queen Bees stat is now in a vertical column bc i went over 100.) Finally, the statement: “You found everything! All 27 words worth 161 points.”
laura, a tall white trans woman in a black dress blouse with shoulder length curly hair and a bang-up makeup face, smiles without teeth but really wide.
an image from the NYT Games spelling bee game. from top to bottom: a cute cartoon bumblebee wearing a crown, then the words Queen Bee in an elegant h2 size serif font. then a series of stats from left to right: 162 puzzles, 6,495 words, 230 pangrams (words that use all seven letters in the puzzle at least once) and 125 Queen Bees. (the Queen Bees stat is now in a vertical column bc i went over 100.) Finally, the statement: “You found everything! All 69 words worth 308 points.”
an image from the NYT Games spelling bee game. from top to bottom: a cute cartoon bumblebee wearing a crown, then the words Queen Bee in an elegant h2 size serif font. then a series of stats from left to right: 149 puzzles, 5,946 words, 208 pangrams (words that use all seven letters in the puzzle at least once) and 112 Queen Bees. (the Queen Bees stat is now in a vertical column bc i went over 100.) Finally, the statement: “You found everything! All 49 words worth 255 points.”
an image from the NYT Games spelling bee game. from top to bottom: a cute cartoon bumblebee, then the words Queen Bee in an elegant h2 size serif font. then a series of stats from right to left: 137 puzzles, 5,373 words, 188 pangrams (words that use all seven letters in the puzzle at least once) and 100 Queen Bees. Finally, the statement: “You found everything! All 28 words worth 147 points.”
an image from the NYT Games spelling bee game. from top to bottom: a cute cartoon bumblebee, then the words Queen Bee in an elegant h2 size serif font. then a series of stats from right to left: 127 puzzles, 4,977 words, 168 pangrams (words that use all seven letters in the puzzle at least once) and 90 Queen Bees. Finally, the statement: “You found everything! All 71 words worth 388 points.”
an image from the NYT Games spelling bee game. from top to bottom: a cute cartoon bumblebee, then the words Queen Bee in an elegant h2 size serif font. then a series of stats from right to left: 124 puzzles, 4,828 words, 164 pangrams (words that use all seven letters in the puzzle at least once) and 87 Queen Bees. Finally, the statement: “You found everything! All 51 words worth 251 points.”
henry, a large black bombay cat with a particularly rounded face, rests on a couch next to an open (and ancient) paperback copy of ulysses (the vintage american one) by james joyce.
a trans girl with curly-wavy short hair in a scallop neck dress and black frame glasses holds a gin cocktail in one hand and does her best to smile
the sleeve for a vinyl copy of neko case’s second album (FURNACE ROOM LULLABY, credited to neko case & her boyfriends). neko is a gorgeous redhead lying on a concrete floor as if collapsed or dead for the album cover. just past the right hand corner of the album sleeve is an empty fucking mcdonald’s fry box
a girl holds a bottle of wild turkey 101 rye whiskey in her left hand with the kitchen table in the background. you can vaguely see a glass on the rocks, some tortillas and a pack of lucky strike cigarettes
an image from the NYT Games spelling bee game. from top to bottom: a cute cartoon bumblebee, then the words Queen Bee in an elegant h2 size serif font. then a series of stats from right to left: 85 puzzles, 3,084 words, 102 pangrams (words that use all letters in the puzzle at least once) and 50 Queen Bees. Finally, the statement: “You found everything! All 69 words worth 367 points.”
a screenshot from the co-star horoscope app that says: “YOUR DAY AT A GLANCE “Be your own baby. “You’ve spent years becoming the caretaker everyone relies on. Now your own cup is empty. The tenderness you’ve shown others? Turn it inward. Nobody will protest if you put your oxygen mask on first.”
an image from the NYT Games spelling bee game. from top to bottom: a cute cartoon bee, then the words Queen Bee in an elegant h2 size serif font. then a series of stats from right to left: 71 puzzles, 2,428 words, 80 pangrams (words that use all letters in the puzzle at least once) and 36 Queen Bees. Finally, the statement: “You found everything! All 34 words worth 164 points.”
an image from the NYT Games spelling bee game. from top to bottom: a cute cartoon bee, then the words Queen Bee in an elegant h2 size serif font. then a series of stats from right to left: 64 puzzles, 2.132 words, 70 pangrams (words that use all letters in the puzzle at least once) and 30 Queen Bees. Finally, the statement: “You found everything! All 56 words worth 218 points.”
the QUEEN BEE logo for the NYT spelling bee game indicating i found every word in a puzzle for june 2. under the words Queen Bee and the date, there’s the letter grid and a quaint cartoon of a yellow queen bee.
the QUEEN BEE logo for the NYT spelling bee game indicating i found every word in a puzzle for may 31. under the words Queen Bee and the date, there’s the letter grid and a quaint cartoon of a yellow queen bee.
big henry, a lörge jet black bombay cat, rests atop a bankers box with venetian blinds in the background
the mitchum brothers in TWIN PEAKS outside the douglas jones residence. one brother says to another, “people are under a lot of stress, bradley.”
william blake’s illustration plate for “the sick rose” from SONGS OF INNOCENCE AND EXPERIENCE, depicting a (debatably) dying rose hanging down from a seemingly wilting and heavily thorned rose plant. a caterpillar is crawling on one of the plant’s branches and other odd looking perhaps humanoid figures are on the other branches, while a recognizably jubilant woman appears to be bursting from the blooming rose. the title and text of the poem as depicted on the plate is as follows: The SICK ROSE O Rose thou art sick. The invisible worm, That flies in the night In the howling storm: Has found out thy bed Of crimson joy: And his dark secret love Does thy life destroy.
colin farrell as det. james “sonny” crockett in miami vice (2006), neck-length blond hair with brown roots carefully combed back and a handlebar mustache, wearing sunglasses, multiple necklaces and a black patterned guayabera shirt
a still image of scoot mcnairy as frankie in the film KILLING THEM SOFTLY with the caption “It’s just shit, you know?”
jayson tatum (left) and jaylen brown (right) after winning the NBA finals, both smiling; tatum is holding the larry o’brien trophy and pointing at someone while jaylen holds onto his bill russell finals mvp trophy.
a capsule review of Nine Inch Nails – The Downward Spiral “Few 1990s albums have aged as little as Nine Inch Nails’ signature ode to self destruction. The Downward Spiral sounds like it could’ve been made this year. Nothing in the implacable hell’s-dancefloor beat of “Closer,” the punishing riffs on “Heresy” and “I Do Not Want This,” the shapeshifting industrial-punk of “March of the Pigs” or the factory clank of “Reptile” would sound out of place on recent albums by HEALTH, Uniform, or clipping. Above all else, The Downward Spiral has stood time’s test because of Reznor’s uncanny ear for hooks and knack for distilling human darkness. It’s tempting in our hyper ironic age to chuckle at lyrics like “God is dead/And no one cares” or “Don’t you tell me how I feel/You don’t know just how I feel!” But virtually everyone reading this has felt both of those things, at that level of brutal simplicity and despair. Quite a few albums on this list have saved lives; I know this one saved mine.”
“BROKEN BRUISED FORGOTTEN SORE” in black lettering, with each word backgrounded by white vertically descending stripes; background of whole image is black
two tweets by someone complaining that people got in her mentions for saying an inflammatory and ableist statement: 1. “can you all just fucking block me instead of screaming nonsense in my mentions holy shit i am sorry for insinuating we should think critically about drug use okay? i’m sorry for saying addiction to stimulants shouldn’t be the only path to a fulfilled life!” 2. “going nuclear in the mentions of some random woman online isn’t the crusade for liberation you think it is just leave me alone fuckkkk”
Sydney Sweeney during the filmmaking of IMMACULATE with about a gallon of fake blood on her clothes and face. doing a silly smile and giving double thumbs up between takes of the catacomb scenes
The cover of the album Dopesmoker by stoner-rock pioneers Sleep, featuring strange robed figures in a desert, equipped with weed-smoking apparatuses
Christopher Walken in the film SEVEN PSYCHOPATHS saying “too bad!” in a stand-off scene set in the desert
The landlord raised our rent by 30% and priced us out. We need housing and $7000 by June 1, but think we can save $4000+ if we can get help with the rest. My partner was fired last fall and we’ve been through one crisis after another since. He’s worked a bit as a contractor, but his income is never guaranteed. I’m disabled by chronic pain, degenerative disc disease, and intense trauma. I’m trying to get SSDI but I’m only partway through the process. We’ve been homeless with pets before and are horrified it could happen again. Thank you so much for reading, sharing, and contributing to our future.
A still photo in medium closeup of Timothee Chalamet as Paul Muad’Dib Atreides in DUNE: PART TWO, specifically a part when he’s looking serious as fuck scolding his mom about the bene gesserit myth-spreading
a last screencap from my letterboxd year in review, which says: Most watched theme: “Gritty crime and ruthless gangsters” Most watched “nanogenre,” whatever the hell that means: “Hero, Evil, Complex”
images displaying my first and last films watched in 2023, plus “diary milestones” (50th film logged, and my 100th): respectively, these are SATAN’S SLAVES 2: COMMUNION, COPLAND, WAR ON EVERYONE and BULLITT.
“Highly rated 2023 films” of mine, per letterboxd. I gave five stars to OPPENHEIMER, KILLERS OF THE FLOWER MOON and INFINITY POOL; the titles are displayed under thumbnails of the movie posters
a display of my letterboxd “2023 in film.” 137 films logged, 67 reviewed, 307 hours watched. my most watched actor is michael caine and my most watched director is christopher nolan
a twitter thread reproducing in part a dialogue exchange from THE IRISHMAN (2019): “a fish? the seat is wet from a fish?” “what kind of fish?” “i don’t know the kind you eat?” “ok it’s just that im trying to understand how a person can buy a fish and not know what kind it was.” “there was a fish waiting for me there.” “so your friend had already ordered this fish?”
a still image of cassian andor’s mother in ANDOR that’s been memed by a caption from a dril tweet: “the doctor reveals my blood pressure is 420 over 69. i hoot & holler outta the building while a bunch of losers try to tell me that im dying”
Mia Goth, in a still from INFINITY POOL(2023; w&d brandon cronenberg) aiming a pistol with a gleeful look on her face
a bag of Tayto brand potato crisps from ireland
the cover page of part five of don winslow’s novel THE CARTEL, entitled “The Cleansing,” with an epigraph from the one time david brooks was right about something, albeit perhaps for the wrong reasons, in a 6/19/2014 NYT article itself entitled “In the Land of Mass Graves.” “People don’t usually go off decapitating each other or committing mass murder just because they hate people in another group. These things happen because soul-dead political leaders are in a struggle for power and use ethnic violence as a tool in that struggle.”
A screenshot of a passage from the revelation to john (revelation 13:4) that reads: “And they worshiped the dragon, for he had given his authority to the beast, and they worshiped the beast, saying, ‘Who is like the beast, and who can fight against it?’”
a close up of a store display of a plastic insulated mug for microwaving soup or whatever, showing that these idiots misspelled “microwave” as “micorwave” on the product label
tim robinson from the netflix sketch show i think you should leave, wearing a hot dog costume with the caption “we’re all trying to find the guy who did this”
stupid fucking charlie kirk in a turning point USA poster that says “a while back i was in a car accident and my dick and balls switched places. now my dick is on bottom and my balls are on top.”
orcas are bragging about how they’ve sunken so many goddamn human ships: “BORN TO SWIM, WORLD IS A FUCK, SINK EM ALL 2023, I am sea beast, 410,757,864,530 SUNKEN SHIPS