Mouse, of the Tiny Chaos variety

@tinychaosmouse.bsky.social

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⨀ Disability Consultant ⨀ Sensitivity Reader ⨀ Community Manager and Moderator She/They, PNW,♿, Queer, Multiracial Black Indigenous, Rat Momma Polyam/Pan/Shameless Flirt “Though she be but little, she is fierce!" https://ko-fi.com/tinychaosmouse

A brown and white rat peeking out of a blanket.
A photo of a sleeping cream and brown pet rat, half covered by a blanket.
Text, white on black: how do I stop mourning For the life I needed While still trying to survive The one I got?
An albino and a brown and white rat smooshed together in a hammock, half awake.
A photo of mount tahoma in Washington state
A photo of a rat with chubby cheeks resting in a hammock.
A photo of two pet rats hanging in a hammock.
A video of a pet brown and white rat being incredibly cute.
A photo of a brown and white rat, snoozing away.
A photo of a brown and white domesticated rat peeking out of a yellow blanket.
A selfie of Mouse in a colorful dress and glasses.
a line doodle of Mouse bundled up in a blanket with a laptop.
A black and white selfie of Mouse. She is wearing a hoodie and large glasses.
A selfie of a smiling woman wearing glasses, dark lipstick, and a yellow dress.
A photo of two pet rats poking their sleepy heads out of a yellow pet hammock.
A photo of a plush bed with many blankets and pillows, with a mirror above it
A picture of a hand holding a black beaded bracelet, index and thumb finger shaped in a heart. The text reads "courage, dear heart."
A selfie of Mouse, a mixed afro-indigenous human, who is wearing glasses, a teal shirt, and a star necklace.
A video of a brown and white domestic rat on a yellow blanket, nibbling away at a pile of popcorn and oats.
A photo of a full dinner plate on a golden yellow pillow. Theres chicken thigh, sweet potato, a vegetable medley, rice, and a blue gatorade.
A screenshot of a bank balance reading $26.31 in available balance and $254.24 in current balance.
A photo of two lit mourning candles in an open window at dusk.
"I cant tell where the ache in my bones for you ends and the ache from being in pain at all times begins. They're starting to feel the same."
A view from a hotel bed with white blankets. A man is sitting in a chair in front of it, back facing camera, while he plays a video game on the tv.
a video of three pet rats enthusiastically licking yogurt off of an aluminum lid.
A black and white doodle of Mouse wearing a sunhat and glasses, with a teacup that says "CHAOS" and her eyes have been replaced by the fire emoji.
A black and white selfie of Mouse, a mixed race human wearing black lipstick and cateye frame glasses. She is smirking.
Two pet rats, one cream and one albino, getting scritched by a hand. They seem to love it.
A selfie of two people of color. On the left, a woman in her 30s with dark makeup and glasses. On the right, a bearded man in a black shirt. They are both smirking.
A photo of two large pet rats smooshed together in a plastic hammock.
A photo of a brown and white pet rat fast asleep in a little hide hole.
a photo of a pet rat, cream furred with a brown nose, hanging halfway out of a blue hammock, with one arm hanging out.
A photo of a blonde, bearded man showing something funny to a smirking human with brown hair.
A screenshot showing a bank balance of $85.86, with 0 in savings.
I ate, even though I really didnt want to. I washed my face. I brushed my teeth. I stood my naked body bare in the mirror and told her all of the things you love about us. Our softness. Our resilience. They way our hips move, Our chest heaves. I tell my hair, What little I have left That little doesnt mean nothing and thats something worth fighting for. And when I finally adorned my limbs in clean cotton And heavy blankets I allow myself a moment of pride For a job well done, Done again.
a photo of Mouse, laying upside-down with eye masks under her eyes. She has a slight smirk and is wearing a pink hoodie.
So this is real hard for me to write, as the trauma is still VERY fresh. I was the victim of medical abuse and assault. Last monday, feb 9th, I had a bone marrow biopsy scheduled with someone we'll call Dr. B. One of my partners took me that we'll call Mr. A. I wasn't even originally supposed to see Dr. B., but the scheduling department fucked up and had to squeeze me in with her. My concerns started when I was told I would be awake for this; the last time I had this procedure, I had been put under. After being reassured that I wouldn't feel it, I was given ativan and told it would wear off in roughly 30 minutes. 35 minutes later, I was taken to the exam room. By the time the doctor came in, the ativan had worn off. She insisted it hadn't, then proceeded to ignore my protests. They tried to numb me, but I felt EVERYTHING. Every little scrape. Mr A. could hear me screaming across the building and by the time he got to me, I was in a state of shock. He had to fight with the doctor just to get me vicodin. Dr B huffed and left the room, saying "I've never had a patient react like that." I reacted like that because it was the worst pain I had ever felt in my life. They did not numb me correctly, nor listen to me when I begged them to stop. Per Mr. A's testimony: "I went into the room to see her still face down on the medical chair/bed, and was sobbing uncontrollably. The doctor was already out of the room at this point. [redacted] kept saying “I told her I could feel it”, “I told her it wore off”, and “why wouldn’t she listen to me?” Her leg was still hanging off the edge because she was in too much pain to even move it. For the next few minutes, I and another nurse, Leslie I think, did our best to calm her down. Even after several minutes from when I came into the room, [redacted] was in too much pain to move, and could only cry and ask why the doctor ignored her. " I went through hell, and I'm still having a hard time remembering details. I am so lucky that Mr. A. was…
a video of a brown and white rat splooted out on a bed, being pet. he shows that he is happy by grinding his teeth and boggling his eyes in and out.
A brown and white rat, looking very sleepy, peeking out of a yellow blanket.
A screenshot of a text conversation. "[Redacted] that biopsy broke something in me. You deserve more than broken parts. You are so much better off without me." "Going radio silent. Spiraling hard. Im sorry I made a mess of things. Again." "Finally got home; You didn't make a mess of things, and it's okay to spiral. I will be doing my best to come by for the half hour cuddle tomorrow. Gnight hun, I hope you can rest." "Sleep well. Thank you for being so understanding. Im safe now, and I've taken a valium."
I still sway with you In empty hallways In dimly lit kitchens In the silence that Your absence fills. They're laying siege To where you Once laid your head And dreamed of peace. You are no longer to be found In rubble; Just a memory In my tender heart.
A big batch of chicken noodle soup
A photo of a pet rat entrenched inside the fabric of a green hammock, looking like he is plotting something.
a video of two pet rats snoozing atop each other, with one grinding his teeth happily as he is sung to by an off-camera human.
A video of a pet rat crunching on dry pasta. Another rat comes into frame and the first rat runs away, protecting his snack.
A screenshot of a tealish orc from the video game baldurs gate 3. she had long, dark curly hair, vibrant red, black, and gold armor, and has a scar across her features.
A screenshot of the character creator in baulder's gate 3. The character is a young, green skinned orc woman with red makeup and long, curly, dark hair. She is dressed as a druid.
A picture of Mouse as a toddler with an IMPRESSIVE afro and distant stare. She sits in her father's lap, a Black man with glasses. He is wearing a blue shirt and tan pans, and has one arm around his daughter. To the right sits a toy baby buggie and a colorful lamp on an end table.
An incredibly cute pet rat with a brown nose resting belly down in a hammock, his cheeks smooshed up by the fabric. He looks content and comfortable.
an image of a crow flying towards water, with the texts "Diagnosed with bpd: bombass pussy disorder"
A screenshot of an email that reads: a shipment from order #(blank) is on the way. OAS ultra electric wheelchair; 1 item from OAS MOBILITY. Shipped.
An albino pet rat, sleeping soundly in a purple hide-hole.
A breathtaking artistic rendition of a firbolg-mushroom hybrid known as Bibi. Her eyes, like the mushrooms in her hair, glow with a sickly bioluminescent light, and her goat-like features are severe and haggard.
a photo of a tired albino rat with a slightly swollen face.
A photo of a handsome young cream colored rat peeking out of a yellow blanket. He looks regal as he strikes a pose, gazing longingly off to the right.
A silly selfie of Mouse sticking out her tongue. She has a curly Mohawk and it wearing glasses.
A screenshot from Oregon Trail played on an Apple II that reads "mouse has died." Below that are the stats: "Date: august 4, 1848 weather: hot health: poor food: 547 pounds next landmark: 27 miles miles traveled: 1192 miles"
Well I dont know why you like spells so much you kinda use them as a crutch I told you, I hate you, now your spell is down the drain, I'm puttin you through pain, I wanna let you know how it's done Fuck what you cast, it don't mean shit now fuck the cantrips, might as well throw them out, fuck all that mumbling it didn't cast jack fuck you, you mage, COUNTERSPELL BACK!
A photo of a mosaic style tattoo, with a rat, a sprig of fireweed, and a quote across the top: "it's chaos; be kind".
A picture of a very sleepy looking albino rat with curly whiskers peeking out of a yellow blanket.