Sai

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On a quest to give you goosebumps ✍️🎶 🖥️ https://www.viusstudios.com Aotearoa/NZ 🇳🇿

Come fall with me. 3 April 2026 - Spotify, Apple Music, YouTube, Bandcamp, TIDAL, Qobuz. (This final picture features a piece of artwork depicting a falling sparrow with its face turned skyward. This artwork is by my friend Anke [@aigooooooo_ on Insta].)
I'm still trying to find my wings. Hopefully I'll get there one day. But for now...
I ended up with something quite wistful. Introspective. Lonely, even. But with strong undertones of hope, as if to remind myself that it'll all be okay in the end.
So anyway. By the tail end of last year, I was at the end of my tether. With nothing else to do, I finally buried myself in my studio and vented everything I was feeling into a piece of music.
Amidst it all, there have been moments of beauty. Some joyful. Some... bittersweet. But it's hard to hold onto those moments when practically everything else feels like it's falling apart, one by one. (Photo contains a watercolour painting from a friend, and an image of an orchestral recording session from last year)
Pretty much every aspect of my life has felt this way over the last year. Periods of immense anticipation and hopeful suspense, all followed by a string of excruciating disappointments, dead ends, and personal failures.
To fly. (Photo contains an image of a sparrow in flight, captured from below)
It's tough to appreciate any of that when you desperately just want things to go right for once. When all you want to do is take to the skies.
It's true. There's flashes of beauty on the way down. And sometimes, the fall takes me somewhere new. But honestly?
...and I plummet. Hard. (Photo contains a pen drawing of a feather, on a ripped page)
So many times, I have found myself on the cusp of leaping forward and taking flight. But every time I spread my wings, I fail to catch the wind...
I've often felt like a tiny sparrow teetering on the edge of a towering cliff. Gazing into the infinite blue sky, longing to feel its embrace... yet also painfully aware of the sheer drop below.
This Bluesky post thread shows a series of photos containing sequential handwritten notes in a notebook, all of which tell a story together. The first one (shown here) reads: "I've been in a frustrating spot with life lately. Maybe you can relate."
A screenshot of the European Recording Orchestra's website, showing the Top 5 picks for the Oceania region. The names on the list are: - James Brew (Australia) - Sean Brown (Australia) - Otto Gibbs (Australia) - Sai Natarajan (New Zealand) - Paul Nicolaou (Australia) Honourable mentions: Matthew Chin from NZ, Jordan Stevenson from NZ, and Arie Madden Welti from Australia.
A screenshot of the European Recording Orchestra's Instagram story, reading "Oceania Continental Winner: Sai Natarajan (New Zealand)."
A promo image for the Play By Play conference featuring the title of my talk: "Giving Your Players Goosebumps: The Game Dev's Guide to the Orchestra."
A picture of the score for the first page of my latest piece "In This Corner of the World."
A collage of pics from projects this year, a tonne of which were taken during rehearsals with the New Zealand Symphony Orchestra. Bottom right section of the collage features some snaps from PAX AUS.
Picture of a recording/filming session with the New Zealand Symphony Orchestra, during which one of my pieces made an appearance. Photo taken in October 2024.